So Dumb

Okay...so my doctor called last week and told me I have Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, which is in the same viral strain as Mono...and I feel so dumb. The nurse actually called, and I took the call during a piano lesson, so I was just really quick about it. My first reaction was to just ignore it (which is generally my first reaction to most medical issues). I didn't even tell Greg for a few days. I really wanted to ignore it because the parents of a friend of mine in High School got this, and they were practically debilitated. They really couldn't function. The father couldn't even work, and they couldn't take care of their home or cook dinner or take care of their kids or anything. It was really strange, and my first reaction was that absolutely can't happen to me (so I'll just ignore it)!

I've been feeling so tired and irritable lately. I kind of feel like I still have a two-month-old - exhausted and emotional. Paige started really sleeping through the night last August, but I still haven't recovered. Anyway...I was at the doctor last week and told him about this, so he did some blood work. I really didn't think they would find anything, but these are the results. It's just very weird. Since it's viral, there really isn't anything they can do about it. The nurse sent me some paperwork, and I'm supposed to stop smoking, stop drinking, eat healthy, and exercise. That isn't extremely helpful. Although I'm not a health freak, and I know I could be healthier, I think I do a pretty good job (except for my sweet tooth). When I told Greg, he just groaned. He thinks we already eat too healthy; the prospect of me cooking even more healthy worries him.

So, I guess I'll just go back to my first reaction - ignore it! I've actually caught myself being more patient with my kids, and a little less irritable, simply because I can't let this be my excuse. (Did I mention my extreme stubbornness!).